Im the ugly duckling ....... i need help ... i need to get on with my life but i just cant!?

I think you have already answered your own question. Stand up, respect yourself and love yourself. I bet you are not as ugly as you think you are, but I will say this, regardless of how pretty or ugly someone is physically, their attitude and inner person can really make them unattractive and someone no one wants to be around. Stop the pity party, get some good self-help books and learn to love you, because if you do not like yourself, how can you expect anyone else to like you? You are likely a very wonderful person, inside and out, now, let the world see you in a different light. Best of luck.